Pedal Like a Girl..

Day 27... MyFitnessPal

2011-01-27T22:26:00.000-05:00

The only great thing about being sick is not being hungry, now I'm feeling better and ready to raid the fridge.. sigh. Anyways, I am almost myself again and back at it, or at least the food part of it. I don't plan on hitting the gym until Saturday. So today I tracked everything via MyFitnessPal and I was pretty impressed with how easy it is to use which of course means I had to download the iphone app.

Day 26....Sigh..

2011-01-26T19:24:00.000-05:00

Well, I'm having a rough month it seems. The first week went swimmingly and then there was the snowpocalypse and then my SO came for a long weekend and now I have a nasty cold. Just ughhhh! I did finally update last week's weigh-in which wasn't a complete tragedy not that a gain is ever a good thing but I expected to be up, but then I also expected to be hitting the gym hard this week, so not happening.

So I think I'm getting back on track finally, but I still don't thinking I'll be earning any activity points for a few more days. Hopefully I can lose at least a few ounces before weigh-in. Tyler now has the same scale I bought last week, of course I actually had to pay for mine, since I'm not famous and all.

Friend Makin' Mondays....One Word

2011-01-24T17:16:00.000-05:00

Its friend makin' Monday! I'm high on cold meds so its a good thing this week is a no-brainer.

1. Where is your cell phone? close

2. Your most significant other? Mr.

3. Your hair? Auburn

4. Your mother? strong

5. Your father? jerk

6. Your favorite? Kindle

7. Your dream last night? Fluffy

8. Your favorite drink? Lemonade

9. Your dream/goal? Independence

10. What room you are in? Bedroom

11. Your hobby? Reading

12. Your fear? Failing

13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Successful

14. Where were you last night? Here

15. Something that you aren't? Tall

16. Muffins? Sometimes

17. Wish list item? Tattoo

18. Where you grew up? North

19. Last thing you did? Email

20. What are you wearing? Jeans

21. Your TV? Syfy

22. Your pets? Chloe

23. Friends? Lacking

24. Your life? WIP

25. Your mood? Sick =(

26. Missing someone? Yes

27. One place that I go to over and over? Jazzercise

28. Something you want: Roku Streaming Player

29. Your favorite store? Amazon

30. Your favorite color? Lime

Day 21....life happens

2011-01-21T15:14:00.000-05:00

Well between the snowpocalypse and an unplanned vacay, life is coming at me from both sides! My Mr. lives in a different state and he is here for a long weekend, which means more food and no exercise. By the by, I suck at LDRs but thats a whole 'nother post. I see the Mr. about every 6 weeks, hopefully as the year goes on I will learn to handle all this wining and dining crammed into 4-5 days and we will definitely be getting some exercise once the weather picks up and we can start hiking again.

Anyways, we went to the Biltmore House yesterday and it was pretty darn cold in NC! I will catch up with everyone after the weekend and tell ya how much I love the new scale I bought!

Friend Makin' Mondays

2011-01-17T15:55:00.001-05:00

FMM is a survey this week, so here we go:

Why do you blog? I blog to keep myself on track and to suck up all the motivation I can from others who blog for the same reason.
What is your favorite TV show? Castle, Human Target and of course White Collar
What's the first thing you drank this morning? Like most other mornings, orange juice.
Are you married, single or in a relationship? I'm in a relationship
List three of your hobbies. Reading, Cookie decorating, writing
What do you like most about yourself? I like the fact that I never tire of learning something new. I'm always striving to be interested and interesting
List a couple of your favorite sites: Twitter, goodreads, NaNoWriMo, and lots and lots of blogs
What's the last book you read? The Darkest Passion by Gena Showalter and Note to Self, a journaling book.
Can you whistle? Not even close but I can snap my fingers pretty loudly
List your favorite pro sports teams. The Pistons and The Red Wings, I'm a Detroit girl
What's the last thing that made you smile? My twitter timeline always brightens my day
Do you prefer mayo or mustard? Definitely Mayo
Do you have a crush on someone? Always.... This week Matt Bomer(White Collar) tops the list
Do you get up early or sleep in? Never sleep in, even if I can
Do you attend church? Very infrequently
Would you rather see a movie at home or in the theater? Theater, love the big picture and the great sound. Its an experience =)
Was there a teacher or authority figure that ever truly stood out to you? Sadly, no..
What is your favorite game? Absolute favorite is Words with Friends, play 'scrabble' with my friends anywhere! I also love Monopoly and UNO.
Cupcake or potato chips? I hafta say potato chips. I'm way too picky about cupcakes, now if you involved cookies it would be an entirely different answer.
Tell us something random that we wouldn't know to ask. I have four tattoos

Day 15....Weigh-in Week 2

2011-01-15T22:48:00.002-05:00

Its been a ROUGH week! I've basically been snowed in since Monday, and pretty sure I've already ranted and whined about that. I've been bored, hungry and not able to hit my workout classes. So its a huge understatement that this week has been a struggle. Somehow by the grace of God I managed to lose 1.2 pounds, or at least that is my best guess.

I have bounced from scale to scale this week and ended up returning the cheap one I bought and I'm currently waiting for Amazon to ship me out another digital demon. So this week's weight is based on yesterday's weight before the now returned scale went all wonky on me and started giving me false numbers. 199 sure is a nice number to look down and see, but unfortunately not an accurate number. Sigh.

In light of picking up speed again this week, my goals are:

Drink 40 oz. of water daily
Workout 5 times this week
Less bread more veggies

Day 14...Fitness Goals

2011-01-14T22:34:00.000-05:00

I have slacked all week and that includes my eating, my exercise and my attitude. Being under a state of emergency is my #1 excuse, but really there is no excuse for not taking care of me. Everytime I think this is so hard I remember that normal people do this everyday, they hit the gym and skip the cookies because thats what you need to do to be fit and healthy. No shortcuts, no whining. Just do it.

So I wonder is the weight holding me back or is it just an easy excuse that allows me to sit on the sidelines instead of being in the thick of it and living the life I was meant to live. I have considered running a 5K many, many times and yet I always find a reason not to. I spend hours bike shopping and always end up thinking that's not me. Why waste money on a great bike when I'll be too much of a chicken to spend hours and hours riding it. And now adding to the list is the warrior dash and once again I have a long list of excuses as to why I'm not gonna do this, but my inner skinny chick she wants to be a warrior...

Sweet and Sour Meatballs

2011-01-11T11:55:00.000-05:00

I mentioned yesterday that I made these meatballs for dinner. They actually turned out to be a few more points than I was expecting but they were sooo good and super easy. I actually used frozen meatballs instead of making my own because that's what I had on hand. I ran the recipe through the Weight Watchers Recipe Builder and as you can see below they came out to 10 points a serving. 10 points on the Points+ program that is.

Days 9 & 10... Snow Day!

2011-01-10T22:28:00.001-05:00

Today was the first day of the spring semester and all classes were cancelled, if you're in the south I'm sure you got some of this crazy weather too! So after getting about 6 inches of snow, now we have freezing rain. I'm pretty sure I won't be leaving the house tomorrow either. I'm a northern girl so the snow is no big deal but I am used to road crews and people that know how to drive in winter weather.

So the bad thing about being snowed in, too much time to think about food! I've pretty much got a grip on the whole eating when I'm not hungry thing, but I was starving alllll day long.

I don't work out at home and this weather is really cutting into my exercise schedule which means I probably won't be working out tomorrow either. If I can't get out by Wednesday I'll hafta break out the dvds and do something. I had planned on making a menu plan this week and even printed out the planner but that's as far as I got, but today I made Sweet and Sour Meatballs for dinner not realizing that brown sugar was hella points and it ended up being 10 points a serving. Yikes! I will need to work on that recipe.

Food Journal:
B - Peanut butter toast (5) + Orange juice
L - 1/2 chicken salad sandwich (4)
D - Sweet and sour meatballs (10) + Jasmine rice (4)
S - Mints (2) + Lemonade (3) + Tortilla chips (4)

Total: 35

Vlog #1

2011-01-09T16:10:00.000-05:00

I uploaded a short video on youtube, not very good at the video thing but I think it will be great to look back on the changes I've made.

Day 8.. Week 1 Weigh-In

2011-01-08T22:16:00.001-05:00

Today is weigh-in day and I'm down 2.5 pounds from last Saturday. So I guess the first thing is more would have been nice, I mean it is the first week but on the same hand I am rarely happy with my weigh-ins. Always wishing the number would have been higher, but this time I have a weekly goal in mind and I met that goal with a pound to spare so right now I'm ahead of the game!

The second thing is bigger than my weight problem is my food problem and thats the problem I'm trying to fix first. I'm either dieting or eating everything that isn't nailed down and this time around I'm desperately searching for the middle ground, trying to learn to eat everything in moderation. One week down, 30 more years to go. On a side note my beautiful daughter also rocked out an awesome week and weight loss!

Here is a snapshot of my numbers from this week.

Day 7

2011-01-07T23:09:00.000-05:00

Buying chocolate wasn't my worst idea ever but its pretty darn close, so now I've had a fair amount of chocolate the past two days and there is still plenty left, locked up in my car that is. The freezer was just too close! With that being said, chocolate lasting me 2 days is a miracle in itself, me not wolfing down the whole bag on the first day... whoda thunk?

Besides the chocolate I've had one heck of a busy day and with school starting on Monday, I'm more than a little concerned about this Math class I'm in for. Its going to be a rough semester! I'm already printing out homework! I've so enjoyed the last month without all this stuff hanging over my head. The Mr. asked if I was going to be able to keep up with all these trips to the gym during school. I appreciate his concern which always sounds more like a lack of faith...anywho. So far this week I've spent 5 hours working out not including driving time, but its really not an option to let up. Somehow, I will make it work!

Food Journal:
B - Cheerios (3) + Banana (0) + Almond Milk (1)
L - 1/2 chicken salad sammy (4) + BBQ Chips (2)
D - Breaded chicken (5) + green beans (0) + Italian bread w/'butter' (3)
S - Mints (2) + Chocolate (11) + Apple slices (0)

Total: 31
Jazzercise = 6 activity points

Weigh in day tomorrow! Cross your fingers..

Days 5 & 6

2011-01-06T22:37:00.001-05:00

I’ve been avoiding the scale so much that I completely forgot to do my weigh-in for the Power of One Challenge so as of this morning I lost 3 pounds since Saturday which is my regularly scheduled weigh-in.

Today I ate and I’m trying not to worry about it so much, mainly because I’m trying to learn to eat in moderation and moderation for me includes chocolate. At the same time I’ve been eating dairy free for the last week and I could definitely feel the difference a few hours after wolfing down some hershey’s. Blech! I will be searching for some Enjoy Life Foods chocolate bars tomorrow. So today I ate all my points and then ate 5 activity points. I have been slowly eating away at my activity points but not using my extra weekly points, the main reason being that the new plan really gives you enough points to eat well within your daily target and not be hungry.

Food Journal:

B- Oatmeal (3) + Toast w/’butter’ (2) + Orange juice (3)
L – 1/2 ham sandwich (4) + BBQ chips (2)
D – grilled chicken (3) + spinach (0) + raspberry vinaigrette (1)
S – Mints (2) + chocolate (11) + Lemonade (3) + Banana (0)

Total: 34

Day 4...Strange Days

2011-01-04T22:42:00.000-05:00

Food Journal:
B - apple slices (0)
L - Chicken fingers + french fries (15)
D - Ham sandiwch (7) + BBQ chips (2)
S - Tortilla chips (4) + Mints (2) + Banana (0) + Lemonade (3)

Total: 33
Walking - 4 activity points
Zumba - 4 activity points

Its been one of those days. Those days with not enough sleep and too much going on. I've done nothing but run all day! Skipped breakfast, went out for a late lunch and then ended up wolfing down a sandwich at 9pm. I worked out twice and didn't go over my points so it wasn't a bad day just not an average day.

I went to TGI Fridays and ate greasy food. In my defense I've given up chocolate and absolutely anything with any milk or dairy products in it. Goodbye cool ranch doritos *sigh* So greasy food is all I have left. I went out with every intention of counting every last calorie and knowing it might cost me quite a few of my weekly points and that is what's different this time around. No shortcuts. Make smart choices 90% of the time and the other 10% eat french fries.

Today was the first day I used the Nike+ GPS app and although I was indoors and didn't really get to check out the GPS part, it is really cool. Here is a pic of the lock screen while you're on your walk/run. It keeps track of your distance every half mile so you don't need to keep checking your phone if you're tracking your workouts that way and when you end the workout you can sync with Nike+

Day 3.....Time to move

2011-01-03T23:12:00.000-05:00

First workout day of the new year! 60 minutes of Jazzercise is proof that I have done much moving over the past month, Ouch! I hate to pick favorites but its true. I was so happy to see my favorite instructor getting ready to teach when I walked in and as always she kicked my butt, but I'm on my way and may even finally get in my 50 Jazzercise classes this year.

I feel like I go to all these classes and spend all this time in the gym and yet I still stay the same size. I really hate that! This year is going to be different. It will take all year but month by month there will be less of me straining my poor knees.

Food Journal:

B - Peanut butter toast (5) + orange juice (3)

L - 1/2 ham sandwich (4) + BBQ chips (2)

D - Wendy's Jr. Hamburger (6) + value french fry (9)

S - Mints (2) + Banana (0)

Total: 30

Jazzercise - 6 activity points

Day 2

2011-01-02T23:30:00.002-05:00

Is it only day 2? It seems so much longer already! I have been to the grocery store twice and not bought anything I shouldn't. I even walked down the candy aisle twice! I was there today buying bottled water and I also picked up some apple slices. Some people might think thats no big deal and others think why waste the $$$ on such things, but its time to put me first and if it costs me a little extra to make this journey a little easier for me thats what I'm gonna do. I'm lazy and when it comes to washing, peeling and cutting up apples. Honestly, its probably not gonna happen. But if I spend the extra buck on those slices all ready to go I guarantee I'll be eating apples everyday. So I'm done apologizing for the little things that make healthy eating easier for me and everyone should join me because we're worth it!

I finally finished the unpacking and the cleaning and the laundry. Sheesh! Its a good thing Christmas is only once a year. 3 days to unpack is just crazy. While trying to stuff all my new clothes into one dresser, it occurred to me how much room I would have if I kept only one size in my drawers instead of clothes that fit 2 years ago, clothes that fit last year and what I'm wearing now. I then promoted my workout wear to a higher drawer to make it easier to get to. I had them stuffed in the bottom drawer *blushes* and since my dog sleeps right in front of the dresser it can be a chore to find everything.

weigh-in: 206.5
point range: 29
flex points: 46
water: 20 oz.
vitamins: n/a
AP's earned: 0.0

breakfast:
Peanut Butter Toast - 5
Orange Juice - 3
lunch:
1/2 ham sandwich - 4
lays chips - 2
snack:
Banana - 0
Apple slices - 0
Hershey nugget - 1
Starlight mints - 2
dinner:
roasted chicken - 5
northern beans + mayo - 4
italian bread + 'butter' - 5
total:31

Day 1

2011-01-01T23:06:00.000-05:00

I'm hungry...'nuff said but dang I've been hungry all day and its completely my fault for not remembering that fruits and verggies are 0 points now *blushes* I just finished off a bowl of lucky charms w/almond milk so I should be good now, ending the day at 30 points.

I've been home for 2 days and I'm almost done unpacking but I'm just sooo exhausted. Sleeping a lot, just not caught up yet. Hopefully that will happen tomorrow. In other news I found my food scale!!! Well, its actually a postal scale so I guess that makes it all purpose anyways....it had been MIA for the past month. Sometimes I forget that I'm vertically challenged and put things where not only can't I reach them I can't even see them!

Power of One Challenge

2011-01-01T18:13:00.001-05:00

And the first challenge of the year is Power of One 8 weeks to a fun, fit me. Ok, well 8 weeks can only do so much but its a start! So the first step is to make a list of goals, no we're not calling them resolutions. I make goals all the time, its the follow through that I suck at. I'm making short term goals, just not quite ready to look at the big picture. I'm also not making these goals about numbers, numbers on the scale, numbers around my hips, size of my undies, doesn't matter. I need to make some serious changes and changes that stick no matter what the small white digital devil says. Its a mystery but it will all work out!

Goals:

Keep a food journal every day (EVERY DAY!!)
Work out 5 days a week
Log 40 walking miles in the next 8 weeks
Water, water, water
Blog my journey daily

Day 0

2011-01-01T13:59:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was Day 0, kinda like a pre-game for the big event! I've been off the wagon for a good long while and needed at least a day to get back into it especially with the new changes. I signed up for ww online yesterday but then changed my weigh-in day to Saturday, which is the only reason I've been on the scale two days in a row. I'm a scale junkie and I tend to let that little digital demon make or break my day, so no daily weighing for me at least not right now.

So Yesterday I ate 23 points and lost half a pound. Now my target points is set to 29 and I didn't intentionally eat like a bird. I'm making big changes in my diet, not just the weight watchers kind and now that I'm not eating a lot of processed food I'm a little stumped about what to eat, but my dairy free ramblings are a whole other post =)

What's the story morning glory..

2010-12-24T11:04:00.000-05:00

Everybody's got a story, just mines a bit older like me! I haven't seen a 'normal' number on the scale since I was 17 and pregnant (thats a whole 'nother post) After C was born, I weighed 165ish and thought the world had just ended. In reality I should have worked off those 40 pounds and got my life back on track. Hinds sight... After J was born, the scale was reading a steady 185 and so started my career at Weight Watchers. FYI, J is now 21 and I'm still a career weight watcher and currently weigh more than when she was born. Sometimes things don't go as planned.

Next came D and by then I was huge. I remember stepping on the scale when he was about 3 and watching the numbers go up and up, when they reached 250 I stepped off. Maybe I should point out that I'm 5'3", 250 pounds is a lot on a petite woman! Through all these years when I was my heaviest my significant other was his lightest, spending his 20's and half of his 30s not weighing more than 150 pounds. Even now in his 40s you can see that his metabolism has clearly slowed down and still he doesn't exercise and lives on Mcdonalds with a steady weight of 175.

Nearly 6 years ago I got back on the weight watcher wagon and managed to lose 60 pounds in about 8 months and then spent the next 2 years putting it back on. Which makes 162 my lowest adult weight ever and then I slowly let the weight creep up on me again. Its so easy to say its just 5 pounds and then before you know it its'just' 20 pounds and now I'm back almost to where I started from.

Well this post has gotten away from me, but there is my fat girl history in a nutshell. 2011 is right around the corner and I'm ready to shed the fat girl once and for all!

Be Beautiful Today....

2010-09-07T22:47:00.000-04:00

Today I took care of me.
Today I treated myself with the love and respect I deserve everyday.
Today I did NOT eat over the kitchen sink.
Today I took time to make myself lunch, instead of grabbing a handful of chips.
Today I dragged my big butt and my bad attitude to Jazzercise Class.

Today I lived life like a normal person, not a person on a binge, not a person recovering from a binge, not a person on a diet. Just a person with a healthy attitude towards life and especially towards food. Maybe normal isn't so over-rated after all...

What did you do today?

I'm the energizer bunny....

2010-08-14T00:00:00.000-04:00

I keep going and going and going.... I've been an emotional wreck for weeks, months, possibly even the last year and I still keep going and going and pretending that I'm ok. The truth is I'm not ok. I am dissolving a 20+ year marriage, I have moved nearly 1,000 miles away from my kids and I am basically starting my life over from the ground up at the age of 43.

But I am back here, trying to pick up where I left off and take care of me and hope the rest takes care of itself.

"It's never too late to be who you might have been."
~ George Eliot

Onederland!!!...

2010-04-02T08:24:00.000-04:00

It's been a rough week between hormonal swings and Mohs Surgery to take care of my skin cancer, I guess I should be happy to be counting any loss at all. I am down 2.2 pounds this week and absolutely thrilled to be back in...

Onederland!!!!

Not so thrilled that the scale has a mind of its own this week where a 1300 calorie day equals a gain and a chocolate binge bringing me to a 2000 calorie day equals the biggest loss of the week. *shaking my head*

Yes, I am still OCD about the scale but really the bigger problem is listening to everyone claim that losing weight is a scientific equation when the reality is, less calories in does not always translate on the scale especially not when you're a woman in her early 40's.

In other latebreaking news...I have been on track for 2 weeks now. Two whole weeks of biting and writing. I think that may be a record for me. I did have one day that I went off the reservation but as you can see I wrote it down and added it up. And... I finally reached my first goal in the sidebar, so go me!

Saturday - 201.2 (1469 calories + Zumba)
Sunday - 201.6 (1303 calories)
Monday - 201.2 (1343 calories)
Tuesday - 200.2 (1354 calories)
Wednesday - 200.6 (2128 calories + Surgery)
Thursday - 199.0 (1426 calories)
Friday - 199.4

Hungry!!

2010-03-29T18:36:00.000-04:00

So here I am in front of the computer, desperately trying to stay out of the kitchen. Dinner isn't ready and I am starving! I am also PMSing which doesn't help much. I have a good stretch of the day that I don't eat, lunch is around 1 and then dinner is usually about 6'ish. Today I had some grapes in between because I'm getting a little tired of being hungry all the time.

I am also stubborn and refuse to give in to being hungry. I just keep thinking it will get better, but then I wonder are skinny girls hungry all the time? And maybe I'm not hungry maybe I'm just not full which is a big change for me. For now, I'm sucking down water and hoping I'm a little less hungry tomorrow.

Confused and Annoyed..

2010-03-28T17:43:00.001-04:00

I have slacked off the past two days, no denying that but that’s no reason for the scale to be a back-stabbing brat. Let me explain.

Yesterday, for the first time in almost two weeks I got off my lazy butt and got some exercise and in return I get to weigh more than I did on Friday. So unfair!!

Everyone and their brother thinks I’ve lost my mind when I say I don’t workout because it stalls the scale. I swear it’s the God’s truth! So let’s review yesterday.

Morning weigh-in: 201.2

Exercise: 1 hour of Zumba – 527 calories burned

Breakfast: Toast + Juice + Banana

Lunch: Chicken + handful of chips + 100 calorie cookies

Dinner: BBQ chicken sandwich + handful of baked fries + lemonade

Snack: buttery popcorn

Sooo. My numbers are Calories in: 1469 and Calories expended: 527, which should have left me almost 300 calories ahead of the game.

This morning I weighed: 201.8

Soooo unfair!!!!

Where did my Self Control run Off to?

2010-03-27T20:02:00.000-04:00

This weekend is proving to be a bit of a challenge. A little of this and a little of that and yes the calories do still count if you eat over the sink. However, I did make my first Zumba class in weeks. Talk about fun! Then I went out and bought some new runners. So much more exciting than my old lavender ones.

ScaleTime!!

2010-03-26T09:54:00.000-04:00

It's amazing what you can accomplish when you stop whining and stop looking for shortcuts and come to terms with the fact that this is gonna be hard and its not gonna happen overnight. I lost 8.4 pounds this week.

8.4 pounds!!!!!!!

It has taken me forever to find my groove, but I think I finally made it! But those awesome numbers aside, the real success is I stayed on track allllllll week. Can you believe it!?! Seven straight days of choosing food instead of letting it choose me!

Just let It Go..

2010-03-25T11:27:00.001-04:00

I have made major progress on the scale this week. However, the two previous weeks I spent in a sugar coma and the numbers were not pretty. So even though I'm having a kick-a** week. I'm still thinking how much better it could have been if I hadn't spent the first part of this month sabotaging myself.

So instead of being ecstatic about my great week. I just keep saying, yea, but I'm just back where I started from.Blah! I thought a confession might make me feel better. Well, ya never know! So here goes...

I spent the first two weeks of March in a sugar coma and put on nearly 7 pounds in that time. I then started this journey again last Friday and for all intents and purposes my starting weight is 210 and my goal weight is 75 pounds away. And that's the story I'm sticking with.

It really is hard to let go of what you did or didn't do yesterday, but you can't change it so put your energy somewhere else, like on the treadmill. My mama is southern and I swear she has a saying for every situation! So....No sense in crying over spilt milk.

Lose it! on your iPhone..

2010-03-24T18:08:00.003-04:00

Geek? Nerd? Technogeek? Person in need of a life? Whatever it is you like to call us folks that always have a phone in their hand. I am one of them. Whether you're counting calories, points or just writin' it all down. Its nice to have your weight loss plan handy at all times.

Lose it! for the iphone/itouch is a great app that will track your calories consumed, your calories burned and even keeps track of the date you should meet your goal weight. For those interested it tells me November 19, 2010 is THE day, of course that date changes everytime you record your current weight. Such is life.

I included some screen shots for anyone interested in the app and looking for that right push to spend the big bucks on an iPhone. Disclaimer: I currently have a mouth full of stitches in case you're wondering about the big bowl of ice cream for lunch! See yesterday's rant about milkshake calories.

I see You....You see Me..

2010-03-23T19:13:00.000-04:00

In high school I weighed 118 pounds and I was the 'fat friend' A size 6 never glided past my hips, of course sizes have changed in the past two decades.

After my first child I weighed a 'huge' 165. I never even tried to lose the weight because as far as I was concerned my life was over. I was not always as smart as I am now.

After my third child I really was huge. My highest weight being about 250, at 5'3" that is bad, really bad.

Five years ago I got it together and got the scale back down to 168, but it was short lived. I was still unhappy and still struggling and bit by bit the lost pounds found me again.

Last year I was 185 and once again thought this was the worst thing ever and then my marital bliss lost its bliss and I made it make into the 200 range. So here I am wishing I could turn the clock back a year.

So how do you see yourself? Is there a right size? A right weight? Or is nothing ever good enough? Its time to make a promise to more commitment and less criticism. Commit to healthy eating, healthy living and a healthy outlook. And forget that my thighs are huge and I do mean huge or that I no longer have the breasts of a 20 year old. Some things you just can't change no matter how many veggie burgers you eat.

Speaking of burgers...I had oral surgery today and I'm not a big fan of mushy food or of spending 600 calories on a chocolate shake. Sheesh!

Some days..

2010-03-22T20:19:00.000-04:00

I survived...banana cake....and....girl scout cookies. Well, I survived the cake. However, I only survived the cookies because my son was a sweetheart and ate the whole box before I could. True test of a son's love? He's 18 and has the metabolism of 10 women, he can handle a box of Tagalongs.

I truly hate waiting for people so I can eat. Its amazing how setting dinner back in hour is just pure torture for me. I skipped lunch in order to free up some calories for a big family dinner. I was starved! I did manage to keep it together thru dinner, after all I fully intended to have cake for dessert. Have you noticed how long it takes everyone else to eat? I thought they would never finish dinner so we could have cake!

While I was busy ~~goofing off today~~ working my butt off I found a few goodies to share and I selfishly put them here so I can find them later. This grape salad looks amazing! I can't wait for summer. Brooke posted about this great list of blogs Best Blogs for Weight Loss So pull up a chair and grab some inspiration!

Symbolism? Fate? Karma?

2010-03-21T14:20:00.000-04:00

It does seem a bit symbolic to have a start over date as my birthday. Which means you start a diet with cake! Or not...My birthday was on Friday and I'm just getting to the cake part today and I will probably be tossing said cake leftovers in the trash tomorrow because banana cake might be more temptation than I can handle at this point.

More importantly is my new haircolor. I have been a bottle redhead for quite a few years but every so often a new shade makes me feel new again.

Starting Over...

2010-03-20T20:22:00.002-04:00

Sometimes you hafta hit rock bottom before you can start the climb up...

I have spent the last few weeks on an emotional rollercoaster. Life + food addiction can be such a huge pain!. Sooo I am starting over. My weight has done nothing but bounce around for months until just recently when I managed to gain nearly seven pounds. Ughhh!

Two Things for Today:

I planned my theater snack. It is possible to watch a movie without chocolate covered peanuts. Who knew!
I did the grocery shopping...and stuck to my list.

Finally Progress....Maybe...Sorta....Kinda

2010-03-05T18:08:00.000-05:00

I binged today, this is not surprising nor unexpected. I tend to kick a** for 3-4 days and then have a complete meltdown. So how is this progress? First, I was ready for a meltdown yesterday. Tired, cranky and sore from busting my butt at the gym but I pushed thru and burned calories and ate decent and the closest I got to sweets was a bowl of Lucky Charms.

More importantly, I didn't go on that big of a bender. Like I said it was kind of an average binge for me. 3 hours later...I was soooo sick! You may be questioning my mental state at this point, but really...this is progress. My body is finally getting in line with my head and realizing this is crap and we shouldn't be eating it.

And really I think next time....I'll just have a huge bowl of Lucky Charms. =)

The Beck Diet Solution...

2010-03-04T21:41:00.001-05:00

This week I put the food weighing and the scale watching on the back burner and started The Beck Diet which isn't so much a diet as a train your brain program. Its a six week program with a daily to-do list geared to keeping your brain in the weight loss zone.

"If you do what you've always done...you'll get what you've always got"

Ok, maybe that's not the exact quote but you get the idea! If you want to make lifestyle changes, then your thoughts and your habits are going to have to change and there is really no way around that. I've looked and then I've looked some more.

Day 1: create your advantage cards

What are your diet advantages? Which I think is much better than why do you want to lose weight. Instead think: What will I get out of it. What great things will I get or do after all this hard work?

So, here we go:

I want to look good naked.
I want to see my collarbone.
I want to wear all the clothes I own.
I want to smile @ my reflection.
I want to feel in control.
I want to look good in skirts and stockings.
I want to 'wow' the CPT (cute personal trainer)
I want to buy a bikini
I want to wear a smaller size.
I want to have more energy.

So what's your advantage? Better health? Nicer clothes?

Just Ridiculous...

2010-03-04T12:53:00.000-05:00

I am insanely busy mid-week, so blogging always gets pushed to the bottom of the pile. However, I did weigh-in and I was not surprised to see a gain. In the past two months I have yo-yo'ed so much I really don't have a clue how much the gain was. Just ridiculous... So, as of Tuesday I was 203.8. My highest recorded weight for the year, that sounds a bit dramatic since the year just started. I have been playing with the same 2-3 pounds for a few weeks now.

It could be worse! Its just a damn shame I'm not in the maintenance phase right now because then I would be doing awesome!

Its all in my head..

2010-03-01T15:56:00.000-05:00

It's a song...I'm sure of it. It will come to me...someday. Can you believe I'm still here, not making much progress at all, but the cute little ticker at the top keeps taunting me. 18 pounds and my wardrobe selection will double, my muffintop will be so much less, there will be more pep in my step...ok you get the picture.

I will be weighing in tomorrow and it will be ugly, between my recklessness and being a girl *sigh* that little silver demon will not be showing me any mercy. And then....I'm done with that number crunching hag. I am taking a sabbatical from the scale 'cause she always puts me in a rotten mood. Soooo...

I commit to no scale peeking until at least March 16. A good solid 2 weeks of trying to have a little faith that things will move along whether I'm watching or not.

Two Steps Back...

2010-02-19T16:34:00.000-05:00

The problem is I'm not here..I'm a bit envious of all my blogger heroes who are focused and making things happen. When my life is such a mess, I just wanna crawl in a hole for the next several months.

So I went to the doctors and the word 'cancer' was mentioned in the midst of local anesthetic and him shaving a chunk of skin off to send to the lab. I have had better days! I came home and ate myself into a food coma, ok it wasn't quite that bad.

Maybe this post should be titled lessons learned, because I cannot binge...I just can't! It takes me days to get focused again afterwards. So I'm struggling to eat like a skinny girl again *sigh* And I realize I'm not here. I'm not focused. I'm not giving this healthy lifestyle 110% and right now it needs my complete attention. Ya know after school, divorce lawyers and skin cancer.

p.s. awaiting test results, but so far its assumed this isn't 'kill you' cancer just 'scar up your face' cancer. So as always life could be worse, not by much but it could be.

Well that concludes today's rant...

Time to Face the Music

2010-02-17T13:49:00.000-05:00

I am here! I am busy busy busy, but I am here. So let's start with the negative....a 1.6 gain for the past two weeks and only because I was too wimpy to weigh-in last week. I am almost embarrassed to say that this gain is actually less than it was a few days ago, I really let life beat me up and lead me straight to the bakery. Sheesh!

This is week 6 of dieting and I have lost of total of .2 pounds. I have given up dieting, eating according to whether I'm dieting today or I'm not dieting today is just not working for me, so I quit because following diet programs is getting me nowhere fast.

In the past 4 days I have dropped nearly 3 pounds by not counting points or calories but just eating and working out like a sane person. Go figure! Lisa wrote a similiar post a few days ago and that is exactly where I'm at. I need sanity!

Oh yea, about the music. Tyler has a great post about workout songs with lots of great suggestions if you need new jams to get you moving.

Tricks of the Mind...and What I'm Reading

2010-02-12T23:49:00.000-05:00

My memories and my reality are two completely different stories. I have my food journals from 2003-2004, during this time I lost a total of 62 pounds. I remember it as being...easy with lots of exercising, following Weight Watchers and a pattern of great weight losses.

My food journals prove its all in my head! I struggled and the gains were many and the losses were few with lots of hard work in between. I ate nothing and lived like a gym rat. The difference between then and now is I had faith and somehow I lost that in the homestretch.

I have done nothing but struggle with my weight for the past 5 years and its really sad to think that all that was missing was faith. Faith in myself.

I am reading Secrets of a Former Fat Girl You can read Lisa's Blog here The subtitle to the book is: How to drop two, four (or more!) dress sizes -- and find yourself along the way.....A very apt description. I'm not sure about the dress sizes part, but there is much to be said for leaving the fat girl behind and pursuing your hopes and dreams.

Happiness lives in the uncomfort zone. Is uncomfort even a word? Food is in the comfort zone. Skipping the gym and sitting in front of the tv is in the comfort zone. All the things we settle for instead of challenging ourselves to really live our lives, those are the things holding us back. It's time to leave the comfort zone and the fat girl behind and see what the world has in store for us.

Aboard the Titantic

2010-02-06T21:19:00.001-05:00

Do you ever get that sinking feeling? That no matter what you're slowly but most certainly going down with the ship. I am in the midst of a crappy week, actually crappy is an understatement. I have been struggling for the past 3 days to get it together, and at best I'm treading water.

So two things stand out....I am a pessimist. I worked my butt off at Zumba and ate well for most the day and yet I remain focused on the ways I screwed up today.

Second... I am physically and emotionally exhausted. I do not do overtired. Overtired for me is just a binge waiting to happen. I can do sad, depressed, stressed and even bored but cranky and overtired means all my motivation and self control flies right out the window.

And once again I feel like all I ever do is whine and even I am getting tired of it. Its time to exit the pity party train and get moving again!

February Weigh-In...Take One

2010-02-02T19:38:00.000-05:00

Last week: 203.4
This week: 201.0
- 2.4

Its a new month and the scale is moving! Although part of me is still wanting to finish this 'race' and a little peeved that this weight isn't just melting away, my inner optimist realizes this was a good healthy week.

I wasn't starved. I wasn't deprived. I ate well. I exercised. I ate birthday cake. I went out for fast food. I ate an embarrassing amount of chocolate yesterday, shameful. And let's not forget it was that TOM.

Still onederland would have been sooooo nice....onward and downward.

Lets keep in mind that I take my weigh-in pics as I'm rushing around to get ready for classes. Great photography it is not.

Grocery Shopping...aka Willpower Testing

2010-01-29T15:55:00.000-05:00

I am lucky enough not to have classes on Friday, so off I go to run a few errands and the Super Wally's to buy some foodstuffs. Once a week I hit the store to restock and always buy a big bag of chocolate and I always 'say' that I'm gonna freeze some for later in the week, this has yet to happen.

So as soon as I get to the store, I'm thinking chocolate. I'm tired, cold, PMS'ing and a little hungry from my lonely piece of toast for breakfast because I needed to go shopping. Then I realize I have the day planned out, binge on chocolate for lunch and grab fast food for dinner. Track? Log? Heck no I'm not gonna write that down!

I get to the shopping, arguing with myself the whole time because I know, that chocolate is disaster waiting to happen. By the way, I argue with myself a lot. No, Chris, have the applesauce not the potato chips. There is a skinny me inside...somewhere.

Anyways, I finally talk myself out of the bag of chocolate and into a normal sized candy bar. The lesser of two evils. I will checkout and grab a little chocolate there and COUNT it, not just wipe today off the diet calendar.

AND then.....I forgot the stupid candy at the checkout! So in the end I spent an hour worrying about chocolate and almonds I never even got close to having. Better yet, I did pick up one of those cute kettlebells that Jenn has been talking about this week. Its soooo....pink =)

The Scale Mentality..

2010-01-27T15:27:00.000-05:00

I confess to being a scale junkie and in my younger days it worked for me because well my metabolism still worked at that point *sigh* Now however, all it does is mess with my head. There doesn't seem to be any pattern of weight loss for this 40+ body and too often the numbers don't reflect all my hard work and lack of pizza and chocolate.

I feel like I'm in a race to get this weight off , but am I really just wanting to hurry up and get back to my old habits? 5 years ago I dropped 62 pounds and here I am again. So I obviously didn't learn the lessons I needed to, kinda reminds me of Migdalia on Biggest Loser last night.

All this to say,( I really do have a point) I am committing to NOT weighing in. I did not step on the scale today and it was oh so tempting, but I am doing so well right now and I just didn't wanna take a chance of the numbers stressing me out. I really can't remember the last time I went an entire week without jumping on the scale, dieting or not. But they are just numbers and I am worth so much more than that.

Its that time again..

2010-01-26T20:30:00.002-05:00

Weigh-in day that is..I was a coward last week and didn’t actually acknowledge that I had another bad weigh-in but I’m done hiding.

Last week: 203.0
This week: 203.4 (+.4)

Well, I thought it was only +.2 I liked that a whole lot better! Its ok though, next week is going to be so much better I just know it. I decided to finally put a picture up, ok so its not all of me but you can definitely see my problem areas and I really am taller in person.

Tuesdays are sooo busy for me and I haven’t really had time to eat, then I ended up eating salad for dinner. I really need to eat more….can you believe I just said that! Its 8pm and I have consumed 1,000 calories and burned off about 300.

Progress not Perfection

*my comment notifications weren’t working. Sorry! I hope its fixed now.

I have a Plan

2010-01-25T19:28:00.001-05:00

Tomorrow is weigh-in day and I'm not expecting that little square demon to bring me good news....but that's ok because I have a plan! And no matter how much I wanna choke my Algebra professor I will stick to it.

This week's plan:

Breakfast
Lunch
Fruit (snack)
Dinner
Snack (sweet)

Gym Schedule:
Walking:Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday
Zumba: Saturday

I just ordered Winning by Losing but I did find Jillian's oxidizer test online here if you don't have the book. I went back and forth about buying a lap counter....I'm so cheap! I did finally fork over the $$ to help me get thru the winter months.

I have managed to stay on track alllll day! I still have yet to snack, but I did resist a day stuck inside with chocolate chip cookies. Go me!

Whatcha Listening To.....New Playlist

2010-01-24T22:27:00.000-05:00

Twice in one day? Well this was my planned post for the day. I decided that I needed a workout plan instead of the hit and miss it has been lately, so a playlist was in order. My itunes screenshot is below.

While searching for some playlist inspiration I tripped over Tyler's blog. He looks amazing! I did find some playlist inspiration and a whole lotta motivation to hang in there.

Its an off day..

2010-01-24T17:07:00.000-05:00

I don't feel like dieting today. Just like I didn't feel like getting out of bed and I certainly didn't feel like washing my hair. I also didn't feel like making fresh chocolate chip cookies and then not eating them, I have done both the making and the not eating.

I am stressed and depressed; about an upcoming divorce and a hellish start to college classes. I have been in a crying mood all day and yet here I am...because I refuse to let the stress lead me to the fridge and I think its downright hilarious the times I pick to be strong and have total self control. On top of that I'm never hungry when I'm depressed. I am at 400 calories for the day right now. Which leads me to my next even more important insight.

I really don't like food. I like donuts, cookies, cake, potato chips and lots and lots of chocolate. But food not so much which is why I tend to either be gaining weight or losing it. Now if I could convince myself that I don't like sweets and carbs life would improve drastically!

Numbers don't lie....do they?

2010-01-22T19:56:00.000-05:00

Dieting didn't used to be such a struggle, in the past when I've decided to get my act together and drop 20 pounds...I won't say it was easy but if I stuck with the program things moved along at a steady pace and then I hit 40 and well BLAH!

I feel like I'm going backwards with barely a baby step keeping me balanced. After my latest number query I really think it is time to leave the scale behind and focus on me. In my quest for knowledge and my hatred of the scale I decided to work the actual numbers. I followed this post from Body By Pizza and was shocked that 1200 calories was too much. Yikes.

I was a little light on my exercise expenditure but still in order to net a 2 pound loss I would need to keep my calories under 900...900!! and now if I bring that down to a 1 1/2 pound loss it is just under 1150 calories, not ideal but much more room to work with.

Now that the initial shock is over I am wondering if this would get the scale moving in the right direction maybe it would be worth being temporarily insane. Nah...I'm over it. I need a plan but I am really not the self sacrificing type.

I WILL get healthy and hope like hell that eventually the scale falls in line because I already have a pair of skinny jeans hanging in the closet. =D

Old Habits Die Hard..

2010-01-20T11:06:00.000-05:00

It only took me 2 weeks of struggling with the scale to finally lose my momentum and find my old habits just waiting for me. So I feel awful, the scale is up and food is controlling my life again.

I'm not ready to give up so easily....

Exposed

2010-01-18T16:41:00.002-05:00

The Exposed Movement...It will inspire you, motivate you and above all else it will force you to see that imperfections are a part of life. Feel blessed with the good, the bad and the downright strange aspects of your body and....

"Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the Courage to change the things I can
and the Wisdom to know the difference."

I Quit..

2010-01-16T13:59:00.000-05:00

I didn't fall off the wagon....I fell off the whole reservation. Yikes! Between the fact that I'm not losing any weight and I had a bunch of personal s*** happen the last few days well there you have it. Excuse #1137

So I quit....dieting. I have calculated my BMR at least three different ways and arrived at pretty much the same number. Therefore I am leaving the scale behind....can you believe I just said that! In favor of a little exercise and a whole lot of calorie counting.

This week I am attempting to eat allll my calories, I usually skip the last 200-300 calories so I guess I will need to step up breakfast and lunch just a little.

I'm winning....and oooooh my knees

2010-01-14T17:10:00.000-05:00

I kicked butt at Zumba last night or had my butt kicked, either way....everything hurts and that goes double for my knees. So 1200 calories + an hour of Zumba and today I've gained 1/2 a pound. Lovely.

So I am obviously NOT winning the war with the scale and I'm strangely ok with that right this second. I reserve the right to whine about it later. However, in my head I'm winning the war:

Chocolate; I can take it or leave it. Which is HUGE! Chocolate is my go-to food, happy, sad, stressed, doesn't matter. There is never a bad time to be eating chocolate.
Take-Out Food; I literally cannot remember I had fast food. Not even pizza. Sometime around Christmas and I am obsessed with BBQ Chicken Pizza, I could eat it everyday.
ScaleJunkie: Everyday I step on the scale and everyday I regret it. I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong but its just not working and yet everyday I think before I eat, I track, I workout, I plan meals. I whine and say I'm done but I'm not ready to be that girl again, the one that doesn't care about her weight and her health, so I keep on.
I read; I read about your gains, your losses, your epiphanies and I soak up every bit of motivation you have to offer.
Closet Eating; I no longer run for the fridge when everyone goes to work or to bed. I've always been a closet eater and this is the first time in....forever that I feel in control of my feelings and my calories.

I guess on second thought I'm not winning.....but I am still fighting

Food Journal 1.13.10.....Blah Blah Blah

2010-01-13T13:56:00.001-05:00

Yesterday I was in full pity party mode. I ate about 1800 calories worth of chocolate + some lemonade + a sandwich and some soup. Today I am down .6 and this is why I am so frustrated. And that is all I'm going to say about that.

I am back at it today, feeling a little more positive that I will somehow find a way to drop these 70+ pounds. I'm tired of being the girl that cries every time she opens the closet only to find clothes that are too small or too frumpy.

So, if you're still here jump over to a cake for a wife and let her inspire you as well.

Oh yea, the food journal will be here.....later

This Week's Menu

2010-01-13T13:36:00.000-05:00

Running a bit late but here is this week's menu and since I'm feeling a bit lazy this week the only new recipe is the honey BBQ wings. It's in the crockpot right now and if its tasty I'll post the recipe tomorrow.

Weigh In......Welcome to my Pity Party

2010-01-12T20:11:00.000-05:00

Today is weigh-in day and I've been too upset most of the day to say anything.

Last week: 202.8
This week: 202.0

What a lousy start to a new lifestyle. I realize a gain would have been worse....really isn't making me feel any better.

Food Journal 1.11.10

2010-01-11T10:53:00.000-05:00

I am livid with the scale and two steps away from a pity party....sigh.

Today: 201.8

Goals:

~~WATP 3Mile~~
Drink at least 48 oz of water
Eat at least 3 servings of fruits and vegetables
Stay within point range - 25-28

Breakfast:
PB Toast - 3
Milk - 2

Food Journal 1.10.10

2010-01-10T20:51:00.000-05:00

And after a day of eating lots of sugary food and busting my butt at Zumba.....the scale finally moves!

Today: 201.4
Points: 28

Breakfast:
PB Toast - 3
Milk - 2

Lunch:
Grilled chicken salad - 4
Banana - 2

Snacks:
Candy Cane - 1

Dinner:
Hamburger Helper - 7
Bread w/butter - 2
Milk - 2

Total:

Easy Crockpot Chili

2010-01-09T20:03:00.001-05:00

Ingredients

Directions

Brown ground beef and drain.
Add all ingredients to crock pot and stir. Set on HIGH for 2 hours or LOW for 4 hours so the spices have a chance to really stew.
Serve hot with cheese if you would like.

Weight Watchers: 3 Points
Number of Servings: 8
Recipe submitted by SparkPeople user SCRAPPYMOMMY.

Food Journal 1.9.10....Zumba

2010-01-09T19:44:00.001-05:00

Yesterday did not go quite as planned to say the least...but that was then. Today was a Zumba day. Soooo much fun! Who knew shaking your hips was such hard work, but I had a blast and can't wait to go again.

Today: 202.2
Points: 28

Breakfast:
Granola Bar - 2

Snacks:
Chocolate - 6
Candy Cane - 1
Simply Lemonade - 1
Popcorn - 4.5

Lunch:
PB&J Sandwich - 4.5

Dinner:
Chicken Sandwich - 5
Chips - 4

Total: 28

Food Journal 1.8.10 and the Big Picture

2010-01-08T14:44:00.000-05:00

The scale is being a b*tch and I just wanna cry.. I lost .8 the first day and then nothing for 2 days. Drinking water, staying within my points and nothing. I'm so upset.

Ok....I think I've recovered a little, after way too much chocolate. :( I decided to eat today and see if I'm just starving myself. I was hoping to stay at 28-30 points....and then I had an accident with some Hershey nuggets.

So the big picture is that I need to lose 1.5 pounds a week for the rest of the year to meet goal, which is not an unrealistic pace. I need to stop thinking of this as a race and stay committed and have faith that I can do this even if it does seem to take a long long time.

Today: 202.0
Points: 28

Breakfast:
Peanut butter toast - 3
Milk - 2

Lunch:
Chocolate - 20 (seriously)

Food Journal 1.7.10

2010-01-07T23:10:00.001-05:00

Today: 202.0
Points: 28

Breakfast:
Oatmeal - 2
Orange juice - 2

Lunch:
Ham sandwich - 3
BBQ Chips - 2
Banana - 2

Dinner:
BBQ Chicken - 5
Baked Potato w/butter - 3
Applesauce - 2

Snacks:
Snickerdoodles (2) - 3

Total: 24

Yummy Snickerdoodles

2010-01-07T18:19:00.001-05:00

Snickerdoodles

(printable recipe)

1/2 cup butter, softened
1 cup sugar
1/4 tsp. baking soda
1/4 tsp. cream of tartar
1 egg
1/2 tsp. vanilla
1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
2 Tbsp. sugar
1 tsp. cinnamon

In a medium bowl beat butter for 30 seconds. Add sugar, baking soda, and cream of tartar. Beat until combined. Beat in egg and vanilla. Add flour
Cover and chill dough for 30-60 minutes
Preheat oven to 375. Combine sugar and cinnamon.

Shape dough into 1 inch balls and roll in sugar-cinnamon mixture.

Bake 9-11 minutes on ungreased cookie sheet.

Makes 36 cookies
WW Points: 1.5 per cookie

*Diet 2009*

Food Journal 1.6.10

2010-01-07T09:54:00.004-05:00

Today: 202.0
Points: 28

Breakfast:
Greek yogurt w/Kashi Crunch & Banana – 5

Lunch:
3 oz. roasted chicken w/spring salad mix -3
2 T Raspberry Vinaigrette – 2

Dinner:
Easy Cheese Manicotti – 8
Skim Milk – 2
Bread - .5

Snacks:
Tortilla Chips - 3
Simply Lemonade - 2

Total: 26

Scale Junkie Disappointment

2010-01-07T09:49:00.000-05:00

I confess I am a scale junkie which is frowned upon in most circles but I believe my success depends upon not waiting for week end surprises. I am also anxious that my age and yo-yo dieting has done traitorous things to my metabolism. Too little too late?

Today I commit to: more water and 25 points AND to stay on program despite the scale.

Food Journal 1.5.10

2010-01-05T17:03:00.001-05:00

Today: 202.8
Points: 28

Breakfast:
Orange Juice - 2
Peanut butter Toast - 3.5

Lunch:
Mini turkey Sub - 5
Apple slices - 1

Snacks:
Nutrigrain Bar - 2
Cheerios w/milk - 3

Dinner:
Roasted chicken - 3
Tater tots w/ketchup - 5
Green beans - 0
Applesauce - 2

Total:25.5

First Weigh In

2010-01-05T16:50:00.003-05:00

Starting Weight: 202.8
Starting BMI: 36.5
Size: 18W
Ten Percent Goal: 20.2

These numbers don't really surprise me. I gained 17 pounds last year....so not good. I did change my goal by a few pounds and may change it a little more when I get closer to goal. No big rush I'll be here for a while =)
You can print out your own motivational calendar here. It looks great!

Time to Make a Plan

2010-01-04T19:47:00.001-05:00

I am about to embark on a weight loss journey. Sadly, its not the first time I have packed for this ‘trip’. It is definitely the first time I’ve admitted to myself that I need to make this a lifelong commitment, full of planning, planning, and more planning.

Here is this week’s menu plan. Weigh-in day is Tuesday which explains the the strange start of the week. I will be posting food journals and recipes as the week progresses, and most likely making some changes as well.

The only way to start is to start…and see what changes need to be made.

A Fresh Start

2010-01-04T14:23:00.000-05:00

A new blog for a new me? Excuse me while I move in, I hope to have lots more here by tomorrow.